Sunday, November 22, 2009

i want CL's everything on this show!!! omg that hair!!!! and the outfit!!! i wantttt!!!

life's like this;
11:38

exams are over and my hols have started but this strong sense of uneasiness is just THERE. i dunno why but it's annoying. the internet's not helping and my book's not interesting enough to distract me. i just want to...break free. lol like that queen song. HAHHAAHHAHA. argh. i need something concrete and permanent to tie me back to reality. i thought it would be God but i can't feel Him anymore, not really. just like, MINIMALLY. maybe the Devil's out to get me i dunnooooo. shitt. gonna watch 2012 today with chris. YAY TO DISTRACTION!!!!

life's like this;
10:25

whenever i feel that i've managed to tie up some parts of my life, other parts will display their loose ends and start unravelling. and the domino effect starts. and i just become a messy bundle of threads all over again. patternless and shapeless.

arghhhh get out of the stinker kristy!!!

it's so weird cos i chatted with linda last night and it usually makes me feel better but it just pissed me off even more in a way. mostly cos she said i was like my mother. I HATE THAT. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.

gonna go back to losing myself in cyberspace and sci-fi again.

life's like this;
09:59

Saturday, November 21, 2009

it's pretty horrible to finish ur exams and realise there isn't really anyone u want to hang out with after ur papers and have proof of it happening, like, TODAY. i woke up at 7.30am cos i slept from like, 5pm ytd, woke up at 11pm thinking of getting dinner cos i thought it was only 7pm, realised it wasn't, then debated showering, gave up, went online to check for updates, read/dl-ed a few updated shiz, tried to read my book, gave up and went back to bed. quite gross to slp without showering but i was seriously undirty. anw i'm doing my laundry today so it doesn't matter.

so anw, i woke up at 7.30am. hahaha talk abt digressions. and i read my book/went online/made milo. then i realised i still haven't showered and decided to do that in a few hours. then i rmb that why i was up: kate said she wanted to do pilates at 10 together and i was like, sure. then of course she never turn up and i called her and no one picked up and there's been no msg so far. $#%^&. so anw i went for the 10am session alone. MY GOD MY MUSCLES SUPER CMI. but it was good...kinda.

btw i met kate ytd and she says her hp is out of credit (it's always out of credit for some reason). oh yeah and she supposedly sent me a msg via fb to reply this week-old msg i sent her. but i dun think got lor. FUCKER. and her taste in music gives me a headache. ditto for her driving. and she says 'fuck' a lot when she's driving and she has this habit of cutting into my convos with ed (this other angmoh dude she made friends with) or just when i'm talking in general. like, WTF.

i'm really pissed at my friend situation in sydney. like, REALLY REALLY PISSED. and the clincher is that i want to hang out in the city today but like, there's NO ONE. like, i want a GIRL to hang out with cos boys are useless when u shop/need opinions on style and shiz. argh. so i dressed up, put on makeup and spritzed on perfume and realised that i was gonna have to go out alone. major bummer. so i tried calling diane but her hp went straight to voicemail and i think she's back in spore alr anw. and i dun think she really likes me lor cos she cooked and never invite me to her place but invited other ppl instead. there's bec to ask out but i think she's busy this weekend COS SHE ACTUALLY HAS FRIENDS. plus i dun want to keep hanging out with her cos it's like, highlighting my lack of friends. so i called up chris. he randomly called me out for brunch one day so i figured i'll repay the favour. apparently i'm his morning-call cos he was still slping. but i asked him anw and after some sleepy thinking, he said sure. i dun mind asking him out with me cos he seems alright and he looks like he's man enough to endure shopping with a chick without FIDGETING.

sometimes i stare at my keyboard and get pretty grossed out cos it has like, spatters and stains on it, like leftovers from a wank session. but it's not ok!!! i just eat my food in front of my laptop and watch shiz like family guy. i really need to get that cleaning fluid to give my laptop a good wipedown. but i'm more tempted to wait till i fly back and ask paul for help. lol. i'm not even really lol-ing i'm pissed and waiting for chris to call me to tell me he's ready.

btw i HATE being hairy. time to call mum in on the promise of IPL sessions. she said we'll do it after my A levels but she obviously fucking lied agreed to placate me as usual.

here's to a great fucking weekend.

life's like this;
10:38

Friday, November 20, 2009

so model Daul Kim is dead (rumour has it it's suicide) and i just googled up her blog:

http://iliketoforkmyself.blogspot.com

her english isn't perfect but her perspective on life is morbidly attractive. it's the words she uses to express herself and her life. it's so fantastically surreal somehow. anw, i'm trawling through her archives now cos my exams're over and i can do wadever i want, even if it's going through the blog archives of a dead stranger. a beautiful cool dead stranger who was a model. now if only i dint have to do it alone...hmm.

omg her features under the post titled 'fan service' is DAMN CHIO. omgggg why she kill herselfffff. dammit. oh and she's TWENTY. omggg. wasted. and her post titled 'say hi to my living condition' is kinda depressing. sigh sigh.

http://iliketoforkmyself.blogspot.com/2007_04_01_archive.html

and here's the clincher: sometimes i wish i'd the guts to...u know. but that's too scary creepy and final so i shan't.

life's like this;
13:24

so i finished my last paper today: world politics. it was pretty abysmal. and wad's even more abysmal is the fact that i've abt...3 friends(i'm being generous here cos the real answer is more like, 1) whom i want/can hang out with after exams. ARGH. i can add another korean girl whom i made friends with randomly...and another one...and another guy if he's still in sydney...but STILL. omg pathetic pathetic!!! buaytahan man. urgh. argh screw that. my current concern is whether i shd bother clubbing tonight at this 'lax club. it's like, indie music and shiz i think. it LOOKS fun but i know only ONE person out of the entire group so i'm not sure how that's gonna pan out. hmmm. the only plus point i can think of is that there's a relatively cute guy there. but i think i'm just desperate cos we dint even really talk. meaning i suddenly realised i found him mildly cute and couldn't really bring myself to talk to him anymore in case i embarrassed myself *makes loser sign at myself* the only thing i managed to find out about him is that he's rich and he shares the same name as the crab in the little mermaid -.-

oh yeah. the REAL point of this entry is to blog about how nerdy i am. i just completed buying another set of 6 books by david eddings and i was reading book 1 while studying last night (yeah that's why i might fail bah) and throughout the exam today, it was all i could do not to go 'YES!' at the thought of finishing the exam and going straight back to my room to read my wkend away. and hols. i dunno. kinda have this masterplan to borrow books from the library. like, brainy genres that can be understood and which i'm not reading UNDER PRESSURE. we'll see how bored/broke/friendless i get. sigh.

life's like this;
12:23

Thursday, November 19, 2009

this is so annoying but after settling down to study world politics this afternoon i realised that it's actually pretty interesting and not as complicated as i envisioned (not that i'm gonna ace my exam la but still...). it's just cos of the frikkin terms they use like, appachement and...detente and all that HISTORY to catch up on. i still dun get the 2 phases of the cold war @.@ i'm starting to wish i'd started studying it earlier than i can read moreeee. i've read 3 whole chapters today and it's interestinggggg. made me wish i was born earlier so i can actually experience and read up all these world issues fresh off the press. like, literally. ...ok on second thought, not really cos i'd prob be technically challenged today so the wonders of the internet would most likely elude me and i'll also become obsolete pretty damn fast. awww. ah well. ANWS, i''ve enrolled in geopolitics next sem so yayyyy there's round 2!!! and i think i'm gonna apply for future subjects relating to the UN and NGOs. so interesting to see how international relations work out.

life's like this;
19:56

ok so i lied. i'm still screwing around online. soon SOON!!!

life's like this;
07:20

i woke up at 7am today (!!!! right????) so i've drank a cup of milo, ate a boiled egg and chomped down a few oat crisps. i've moved from reading this story book in bed to my desk, where i've been surfing the same sites i always stalk and reading my book once every so often cos my internet speed's irritatingly inconstant. fyi i still have one last paper tomorrow morning. no worries i'll get my ass moving after this...

found this on tumblr:

“ Hey babe. wanna come over to Myspace so I can Twitter your Yahoo and Google all over your Facebook?"

LOL MAN. LOL. new geeky pickup line ftw.

and lastly, this (which i mooched off tumblr too so it's only the last line that applies:

life's like this;
06:54

Monday, November 16, 2009

Why it's pretty awesome to check out fmylife.com daily:

Today, after dating for almost five years, my boyfriend stated that I have a "perfect and amazing personality" but that my looks are not what he "envisioned himself spending the rest of his life with." In other words, I'm ugly. FML

Today, I was watching Pokémon with my daughter when she told me that I reminded her of her favorite Pokémon. Feeling good about it, I asked which one. She pointed to the screen and said "Snorlax!" The fat and lazy one. FML

this will prob be mine:

today, i stayed up all night studying for a paper only to stumble into the exam hall and find out that the paper contained stuff that i hadn't seen or read of before. fml.

oh oh and of course there's postsecret to check out:


that's damn jian yet freakishly cool at the same time. hahaha power XD

life's like this;
08:58

Sunday, November 15, 2009

i spent my sunday hanging out at the glebe street fair with bec. she's my neighbour a few doors down. it was niiice. except for the part where we nearly died. we'll get there. anw, the fair's like, a street down from where i stay so it was super convenient to get there. and it wasn't crappy like i expected. yes i prefer to have low expectations of events. wadevs. the weather was sunny and windy so it wasn't summer overkill and the stalls stretched for like, around 5 streets i think. it MIGHT be an exaggeration but there were A LOT of stalls regardless. the ones that me and bec checked out mostly were the clothing and accessories kind. i got a dress and 2 identical tees in M and L featuring pop-art-ish pics of paul mccartney. i think he and stella mccartney's awesome. i'll admit i know stella's work wayyyy more than paul's but he's part of the beatles so that's alr a certain level of awesome XD anw anw i got the tee for me and dad. i'm not sure whether he's an M or L so i just got both.

oh and i nearly died or was seriously injured today. me and bec stopped to check out this street performer who was doing stunts like juggling chainsaws and fire torches. then he started getting random volunteers from the audience to help. it was kind of a disaster when he pointed out to this china guy to help. seriously. the performer was at the top of this pole to do his final stunt and he needed ppl to pass him stuff he wanted to juggle. SOOOO he totally picked the china dude to throw this blade to him. so chinaman did, LITERALLY. it was a FUCKING bad throw cos it went BACKWARDS and UP in the air so the audience had to scatter around in fright. i was quite near him so i totally saw the blade flying up in the sky and falling back to the ground...close to where i was standing just a few secs ago. and IF he had thrown the knife FORWARD, it'd have either sliced open the performer OR the audience on the opposite side. WALAO can be any more retarded or not the china dude -.- but i kinda feel pissed and mad at the performer cos he like, a bit racist or sth. he kept asking the china dude to guess where his stuff was made from (obviuosly china) and all that. then he asked the china dude where he was made from. haih. annoying eh seriously. shd've just given him 10. or less for being an unfunny bastard.

anw, china guy looked really horrified and embarrassed at his knife-throwing skillzz and i wanted to say 'NI YOU MEI YOU GAO CUO TA MA DE???!!!!' but i was too busy telling myself that i'm alive and unscarred. URGH damn pissed pls. anw i ended up tipping the performer 20 bucks (kinda regret it now) cos he was really good and his stunts were seriously life-threatening. yeah i realised i'm paying for 'stupidity' but wadevs.

and i got my blackmilk lace leggings and i DIG IT!!!! it's too bad it's summer now but i SERIOUSLY need boots now cos i'm not very fond of showing off an entire leg of lace cos 1. my legs aint that hot 2. it's gonna be nippy in autumn/winter anw. here's the link to the designer's blog btw:

http://toomanytights.typepad.com/

he's pretty awesome <3 now if only my legs will suddenly turn into...GISELE'S legs then i'm SET to flaunt all the hosiery/legwear i want with abandon. OH IF ONLY.

haiya shit i've still got 2 papers which i haven't studied for but i'm already shopping and writing down the stuff to pack back home and wad to shop for back home. I NEED TO PASS EVERYTHING!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!! if not the hol's gonna get shot to hell. an even LOWER level of it cos it's ALREADY gonna be some level of hell at some point. i'm gonna rant now btw.

*warning: expletives ahead*

i can't believe mum SHIFTED the bookshelves in my room to the outside and put in like, this cupboard or some shit for spare clothes. it's not so much that she did that but that she did that and THEN told me. like WTF. fuck u la seriously. it's not the first time i've stated CLEARLY, like FUCKING CLEARLY that i dun want things in my room to be touched and moved and if u're gonna do it u fucking have the decency to inform me first. that's why i HATE going home. everything's fucked back up again and i've to tidy up my room AGAIN. EVERY FUCKING TIME I GET BACK HOME. even when i studied in spore which is RIDICULOUS because i come back WEEKLY.

another thing abt the cupboard shift that PISSES me off is that i think she moved my books to this corner of the house where this fucking IGUANA roams around and SHITS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. i'm already preparing myself to explode at my parents if sth happens to my books (ANOTHER REASON TO PASS THE EXAMS IF NOT CANNOT FIGHT ALREADY)

ok bec just came into room to chat so my tirade has been interrupted so i'm like, sane again. i'm hungry now.

life's like this;
15:24

Saturday, November 14, 2009

actually i wanted to blog abt more depressing-ish pressing matters like the fact that 2 papers i've had so far were TERRIBLE. the kind that makes u suspect that u probably CHEATED to get into uni or sth.

but there's worse news cos i'm looking at my requirements for law and it's rather terrible. and i'm only typing out next sem's workload -.-

Civil and Criminal Procedure:

Classes: 2x2hr seminars/wk
Assessments: 1xtutorial assessment (25%), 1x2hr final exam (75%) THANKS AR

Foundations of Law:

Classes: 1x1hr lec and 1x2hr seminar/wk
Assessments: class participation (20%), 1xcase analysis(30%), 1xessay (50%)

FOL sounds less demanding than the first but i've to do debates in class and shiz (o_o)"

Legal Research 1

Classes: 6x1hr seminars

Assessments: Satisfactory Attendance, WebCT-based quizzes and 1xin-class test

this one sounds the shiokest but it's worth 0 credit points unfortunately. ah well.

how man. omg. i still dun feel ready for this shiz but i'm already in (provided i pass all my subjects this sem TOUCH WOOD but it's motherf****** hard seriously. the effects of moderated marks better fall in my favour. oh pls pls pls.). i've been pretty quiet-ish since the papers and i guess it's obvious cos even my friends noticed that i was 'quiet'. the thought of not PASSING, much less excelling is majorly draining *faints*

life's like this;
01:41